I know you’re going to say he loves you, but I know that’s also going to be followed by doubts, even if you’re afraid to admit it to yourself.

Because he does loves you, but only when its convenient for him, only when it doesnt interfere with what he wants to do.

He makes you so happy when its just the two of you and things are going well he makes the world stop. He makes you feel things you didnt know were humanly possible and it makes you crave him even more.When its just the two of you nothing feels like it can go wrong, you feel safe and desired.

Thats all everyone wants anyway, right? Someone to love them; someone to make them feel safe and desired?

But then he leaves, he gets angry over nothing and he blows up.

He goes out with his friends and he doesnt text you back. He doesnt come home and he makes you feel shitty. He decides maybe its not the best to be together or maybe you just are too uptight. Maybe you just shouldnt worry so much and stop being so controlling. Maybe you should just let him be and do his thing. Maybe you should just stop getting in the way of his life.

He turns everything into your fault, every time he does something wrong. He makes you feel shitty and end up apologizing. He makes you feel hurt and he doesnt care because you interfered with his fun, you caused him some inconvenienceand he didn’t like it.

He holds you to double standards. He wants you to change everything while he changes nothing. He just expects you to do things for him while he does nothing for you.

He wants you to give things up for him, but he isnt willing to do the same for you.

That’s not okay.

It leaves you feeling empty and hopeless because you dont understand how someonewhoclaims he loves you could make you feel this empty.

So you try to do better and you try to do more.

You try to go the extra mile to make him happy and make him appreciate you, and he does. He does for a little bit, he does for long enough for you to feel loved and appreciate again before he does something hurtful again.

Its a vicious never ending cycle of constantly and continuously giving pieces of you to him, but pretty soon hes going to have all of you and hell still want more. You’ll find yourself not having anything left to give and it will destroy you.

Some people are selfish and you cant see past it because you love him, youve seen the good sides to him and you want to believe the good outweighs the bad, but does it Do the good times make the bad times worth it? Or does it leave you wondering how long it will stay good before it goes bad again?

You deserve more than that. You dont deserve his mediocre, half-assed love. You deserve someone who doesnt make you feel guilty for his actions and someone who doesnt constantly take from you without also sacrificing pieces of himself.

You deserve more than that.

You shouldnt be in a relationship that leaves you feeling like youre not good enough. You shouldnt be in a relationship where youre walking on egg shells hoping not to upset your boyfriend over something simple.

You should be with someone who makes you feel fulfilled and whole. Someone who brings out the best in you and inspires you to be better. You should be with someone who doesnt take their angers and frustrations out on you. Love yourself enough to see that and please dont settle for a half-hearted love sweet girl, you deserve so much more than that.

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